I can and I will

I CAN get out of here. I CAN do it. I need to believe it...

I am still having an insane time at work. My neighbors are still slamming their doors at full volume and shaking my apartment so much it makes me jump ~10-20 times a night. It's really stressful. Many times at night I'll cry after I come home just because of the work + slamming doors + feeling trapped here.

So far I am only interviewing with one place. I am continuing to apply to places I think are decent fits for me, which isn't many. Jobs are opening in my field frequently, but not here. I have been considering moving somewhere else. I really don't want to but I need to get out of here...

It has been beautiful, as summers are. Wonderful outside, 70s-80s, perfect to sit outside.

Okay just as I was thinking about how great the weather is, my neighbor just slammed the door so hard it made me jump in my seat and my heart raced. Omg. What do I do? Do I send ANOTHER noise complaint on them to management? (I already reported my next door neighbor, now this is my downstairs neighbor). How can people be so inconsiderate? I'm going to email management again and ask them to put a doorstop in that door too. Omg I need to get out of here into a nice place...

I'm going to start studying for technical interviews. I am also trying to sleep more. I have a costume part coming up that I am very excited about. I'm feeling okay, considering everything. I just really needed to come here to write out this:

"I Can get out of here. I WILL get out of here soon."